First of all, I’m sorry it’s been so long since my last post! As many of you might have seen on my instagram, I’ve been on holiday in the lovely South of France for the last 2 weeks, with such a bad connection, it was impossible for me to post a new post. Forgive me xx
But now I’m back in my old bedroom. The house I’ve lived in for 19 years, where I know every single inch and sound. My family still lives here, with their same jobs and school, and it’s like nothing has changed at all. Except for me.
Everything looks the same, but it doesn’t feel the same. As I’ve written in many of my posts, this year abroad has made me very different. I’ve grown a lot, and I came back as a different person. I guess that’s why it’s so weird and abnormal to be back again, because it’s as if nothing has changed. When really, everything has changed.
Leaving Paris was so hard. Saying goodbye to my host family (especially the kids!), saying goodbye to my friends and Paris. Coming home to the quiet life I lived before can be very difficult. However, I’m so grateful I’ll start my new adventure soon, when I’ll be going to Scotland for university. I think it’s very important to have something to look forward to, or a goal you’d like to receive , when you have lived such a different lifestyle for so long. I have many friends who have also had a year off this year, traveling and leaving their comfort zone – all of them have had a difficult time readjusting to their lives in Denmark. And what we all agree on, what really helps, is to have something more than just going back your old life. You have to find a new way in the life you used to live, but you’re not the person who lived that life anymore.
I believe it’s very important to remember all the good times, the memories and all the experiences you now have with you. Everything you learned. I think the most important thing I learned, was the fact that life never turns out as you planned it. You can prepare yourself as much as you want, you can even have the “big plan” for how you want everything to go. But no matter how hard you try, surprises are gonna come, things are gonna go right and wrong, and in the end it doesn’t matter anyway. Be cause isn’t it all the unplanned events and surprises that make it worthwhile in the end? Sometimes you just gotta let go of yourself, and that’s when the magic really happens.
Okay, I know I’ve been going a lot on the clichés lately, but stay with me. I cannot start to let you know how true this is. I don’t know if you’re like me, but I like to stay in control. I like to organize and plan, and prepare myself for everything. And that’s exactly why this year was so amazing for me, and why I come home as a different person. I put myself out there, and I lost control over and over again – and I’d do it all over again.
So I guess what I’m saying is, it’s not gonna be easy. Coming back home, trying to find a new way to live in your old life. And you’re going to be sad, probably cry a couple of nights. But when you get settled in again and you get to reflect and realize how amazing this year was, you’re going to end up more happier than you were before. You did it. And nothing can ever take that from you.
That’s all for now! Bisous xx